Why do I hate the fish pose and feel like crying when I do it? Why can I not be disciplined enough to do the dishes when I also dislike having dirty dishes in the sink? Why do I avoid running in the summer do to measly deer flies and a dislike of running on the road?
What is there to learning in putting myself in a place that is outside my zone of comfort?
Maybe I'd find the root cause and/or move through the aversion to a place of ok-ness or even enjoyment of.....
- Did I have previous bad experience,
- Is there fear here or an emotional element manifesting either consciously or unconsciously,
- Do I feel inadequate against the something I feel is a challenge,
- Is this one of the gunas raising it's head - that makes me feel unmotivated and lazy?
Or, perhaps I'll learn there good reason to not enjoy certain things, task, people?
- That it is really a benign preference for something else and accept that I just dislike it. Is there pain - physical or emotional
- That is not the sort of pain that it is good to work through but is actually to do violence to myself or others.
What could happen:
- Worst case - I bit of discomfort is experienced --> an opportunity to be more compassionate to the suffering of others who do not have the option to avoid that which I dislike (ex. a person who washes dishes for a living)
- Another - I bit of discomfort is experienced and I --> clarify/ learn more about myself in the process even if just understanding what and why I do not prefer or avoid or resist things in life.
- Another - Tapas works it's magic and adding practice with some discipline is the catalyst that transforms my relationship with the items on my dislike list. ---> Over time maybe there is an "okayness" there or a purging of the "dis" from the like such that it moves at least some towards that which I seek to do and enjoy.
- Best case - I expand the boundaries of the experiences that come my way in the ebbs and flows of life ---> I can handle more or great depths what life offers without the added "ugh" , the resulting negativity or wasted energy of putting up walls of resistance.
Hmm....something to ponder at least as I'd think most would like to feel more free and maybe this is a door. This being said, it's simply that. There are many ways to have a more expansive and fully alive sense of living including doing what we like in the moment. Wouldn't it be cool though for that to happen more often as the moments present themselves. There are many ways to get to this place, maybe what I am suggesting is one.
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